Mi Corazon!

Oh ModCloth, quit playing games with my heart.

My favorite line in The Kite Runner

"And that's the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too."

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On a completely different note that has nothing to do with The Kite Runner... I attended a wedding yesterday. It was very beautiful and traditional and simple and modest. I dragged Caleb (my best guy friend/my best friend's boyfriend) along as my date. Yes, my shoes are awesome.

Anyway, I came home wanting to know what the Baha'i Faith says on marriage.

"The true marriage of Bahá’ís is this, that husband and wife should be united both physically and spiritually, that they may ever improve the spiritual life of each other, and may enjoy everlasting unity throughout all the worlds of God. This is Bahá’í marriage."


Maybe it's because I've never been in a relationship before... but the thought of marriage in my life is so foreign to me. It just seems so complex and grand and incomprehensible. I definitely see myself getting married in the future... but it's a far future!


I'm not going to lie... I don't like admitting that I'm 19 years old and that I've never had a boyfriend. I feel pathetic and lame. But honestly (and frankly unfortunately), I can't really imagine it being any other way. I remember when I was little I would ask my mom what the point was in people dating if they weren't trying to get married. I guess for me as a kid I saw how close people got... physically and emotionally... and I just didn't want to get that close to someone unless I knew that they were going to be around for a while. I went into protective mode before I even had anything to protect! And what did that do? It left me naive, cautious, insecure, and lonely. But it also left me pure, relatively heartbroken-less, open-minded, and as a strong individual. I know who I am, I know what I want, and I don't need a man in my life to be happy... but still... having one would be nice :P


Oh man, it's 3AM and my eyelids hurt.

Amsterdam/Barcelona

Pointing and shooting.

All of these were shot by me except for the few my brother shot. I wish I knew what I was doing with a camera... but it was fun :)

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Three weeks I will never forget

On route in the truck back to AZ and one question lingers in my mind...

WHAT JUST HAPPENED?????????

Amsterdam

PROS

-Hogwarts feeling platform/trains

-Pretty (I mean like really pretty) blonde boys... everywhere

-Night life all night long

-People whistling happily by on their bikes (everyone and their mommas rides bikes)

-Day trip to Utrecht

-Cheese stands

-Pickle dogs

-Dutch accents increase attractiveness X5

-Falling in love with the Dom Tower tour guide in Utrecht

-Cafe shops EVERYWHERE

-World Cup on every TV possible except for the small tv in the corner showing the highlights of the NBA finals (boo Kobe)

-Cool Fine Art Majors from Iowa roommates

-Old school Hip-Hop dance club with a girl Dutch rapper

-Busy even at 3am. Way different than in Gilbert where you sit at a red light for five min alone... with no cars passing by either way.

-Canals/greenery/tulips/market shops

-Free loading off public transport... hehe

-Waffles and pancakes. They put anything on their pancakes.... seriously, anything.

-Sunny days laying in the grass watching the clouds float on by the Van Gogh museum.

-Hot black dutch men blasting ghetto rap in a Benz. Ah.

-Renting bikes and riding down the ports

-Dutch airport security guards that could pass for models.

CONS

-Cancer sticks. EVERYWHEREEEEE. My poor lungs

-Weird awkward smells...

-Raining everyday except for the last... humidity + my hair = puff ball explosion

-Spider bites on my left ankle. Itchy

-McDonalds. GRRRR

-Pot head Fine Arts Majors from Iowa roommates :P

-Outdoor urinals for men... they just go pee right there.... on the street corner. What?

Barcelona

PROS

-Blue cheese pizza

-Spending the last day of being 18 on the beach (I turned 18 on the beach so it seemed fitting)

-Break dancing on Las Rambla

-View from Montuic and Mount Tibidabo

-La Grada Familia arc... based off of nature, it was beautiful

-Turning 19!

-Henna tattoo of the sun... I'm a desert girl

-The feeling you get after you blow your nose. Ah I love it

-Montserrat day trip. We took an hour train trip out of the city and a cable car up to the monetary and hiked around in the mountains

-Creative photos :)

-Dixieland style jazz band with a piano, trumpet, banjo, drum set and a CLARINET... eeeee this guy was amazing. Made me proud to be a fellow clarinet player!

-Light/music show at Monjuic magic fountain

-The pizza. Especially the crust.. mmmm

-Trying to get into other tourists' pictures in the background. HAHA so fun

-Cameron's good news!!

-A lazy last day spend chillin in the city

-Buying a KAZOO!! YESSSSSSSSSSSS. I'm going to paint it pink as inspired by the picture I posted earlier.

CONS

-Cancer sticks. Again everywhere.

-Boobs everywhere on the beach. Grossness

-Joan Miro surrealist artist... sorry to say I do not like surrealism after this artist. Weird stuff

-"Cervesaaaaaas, beeeeeeeeer, coca-colaaaaaaaaa" - Annoying people always trying to sell you stuff on the beach

Disneyland

PROS

-Everything

-Feeling like I'm 8 again.

-Riding Space Mountain three times in a row

-Going on California Screamin with Nana... three times. HAHAHAH

-Taking pictures on the Tower of Terror HAAHAH

-The Wonderful World of Color show.... AMAMMAMAMAMAMAMAAAAAAAAAAAZING

-Super deep fried corn dogs

-Singing disney songs all day long

-Disneyland is seriously the happiest place on earth

CONS

-Nothing

Carnival Cruise (Catalina Island and Ensenada, Mexico)

PROS

-Scuba diving

-Kayaking with my dad

-Dancing till 3 in the morning with my cousins

-Being with the family

-Eating food whenever I wanted for free-ish

-Experiencing the view from inside an ambulance for the first time

-Getting an unexpected view of the Catalina Island via BayWatch Boat and USC Hyperbolic Chamber trucks

-Being surrounded by 20 med students all asking me questions and presenting me and my case to the head doctor just like in Grey's Anatomy... so cool

-The fact that half of those med students were attractive men... attractive to-be doctor men. Heheh.

CONS

-The left side of my face going paralyzed from scuba diving. It's normal now... scary stuff

-Developing intense allergic reaction to something I have no idea that left me with inflamed hives all over my arms and legs. Hahaahhahahahahhhahahaahhaha yes that would happen.

-Having to get a steroid shot.... in my bum. Just when I thought I had hit rock bottom....... rock bottom gives me a shot in the ass.

-Taking heavy doses of Benadryl which kept me pretty drugged and loopy for the rest of the trip. But I had no problem sleeping since I was always drowsy so that's nice

Pictures as soon as my brother sends them to me. Btw... I love my brother.

And this is my jam right now. Got me bustin out moves in my seat.

¡feliz cumpleaños!

My eighteenth year was a great year...

It'll be hard to top... but I have a feeling that nineteen will be GLORIOUS.

Also, my sister is the best. She got me this poster for my birthday.

Ork Posters... they even have one with a brain!! Eeeeeeeee!!

ROSA

Oh oh oh oh ohhhhh

        

A KAZOO????

I feel a song about light, airy, sweetness coming on. Pink fever.

I've Fallen In Love

with SUMMER


Tom&Jerry
Sleeping in
Ice cream (chocolate)
Lounging around on the couch in my PJs
Making music
Piano tuning
Dexter's Laboratory
The Seven Valleys and the Four Valleys
Target trips
No make-up
Going to the bathroom with the door open
Walkin around in my undies
Sister time
Pool basketball
Back dives
Gilbert friends
Movie watching
Cooking for my mama
Marina time
DRIVING
AZ Sunsets
Taking naps on the couch on my stomach and drooling
Avatar the Last Air Bender
Father/daughter bonding
Feeding Mazzie
Making my room a mess and enjoying it
Re-reading when Dumbledore dies and crying
Letting my opera voice wail in the shower


Seriously, why travel when you've got all that??
Jk. I can't wait for Monday.........HOLY CRAP PANTS I'M SO EXCITED

Heat

I live in an oven.

Lovely.

June Bug

June Junie Juni Juin Junho Junio!!!

In celebration of the 1st day belonging to the month that is all glorious, I cooked dinner for my family!

I LOVE being in the kitchen and making up recipes as I go. The trick is to stay simple.

On the menu: Chicken Penne Alfredo with Broccoli and Parmesan. I also popped some buttered french bread in the oven. It actually all tasted really good!!!

It's been a week since I left NY and I do miss it. There really is no other place like it. This time, I went alone and on my own into the city. Something was special and new about this visit. There was this sense of empowerment within the women walking the streets... empowerment that I'd never really seen in women before. It was inspiring. They seemed accomplished and their style wasn't just clothes and trends, it was expression - a silent yet obvious way to make a point and feel good about themselves at the same time. And, on top of that, their strong strides had an air of softness, independence and femininity. 

The Saratorialist

I'll take her bangs any day. And that cancer stick, chuck it to the ground and smash it with a hammer.


Today I felt like one of those empowered women. Besides my food masterpiece, I recorded a couple of pieces of music with my amazingly talented girls, Deanna and Anjelica. I haven't felt this happy in a LONG time. Note to future Maryam - build yourself a recording studio. Or hope someone else will :P Poker Face